What's in my bag

Hello my honeybears!

So yes, I am doing a 'what's in my bag' post. I don't really carry anything interesting and I'm too busy to be a proper handbag girl so I chose to do my college bag.

 I really like this bag. I found it in New Look whilst having mooch with my mam on one of my rare days off work. It was a bit pricey (to me at least) at £39.99 but she bought me it as a 'Good luck at college' present. I had a scout around the New Look website and I can't seem to find this so I think it may have been discontinued. Bummer. Anyway, it has this cute little studded tassel on the front which I considered taking off but realised it was good to play with when you're bored. It has a nifty pocket at the front where I store all my little goodies and because there is a metal bar that turns to lock (I don't know the correct term, don't shoot me) so nothing escapes. Yipee!

 There is a zip closing on the top but it doesn't zip all the way to the ends. Design flaw. Also, I noticed this and you may have too, there is a GREEN MARK on my NUDE BAG! This actually happened after it rained when I was out. It's like when you wear cheap gold rings and it leaves a green mark. Seriously, massive ass pain.

 I've caught a few threads inside already too. I like the teeny pockets where I can sort my bits and pieces. When I find them, it's like getting presents from your past self. I always find jewellery, mints or tissues. Okay, they're not great presents from past me but still.

 This is the 'rotating metal lock' I tried to describe. I suck, I know.

Blue file - WHSmith's - This is my veterinary nursing file. It's 2 weeks into my course and it's already breaking my arm. Good start, eh?

Exercise book - WHSmith's - My glossary. That's all. Boring, I know.

Clear pencil case - WHSmith's - Again, boring.

Trebor Extra Strong mints - These honestly work wonders when you have a cough. They stop me from choking very quicky. They are also cheap and cheerful so I always have a supply tucked away in my bag. You never know when you're going to have a cheeky snog. Well, I do because I have a boyfriend. Hehe.

Wrigley's Extra Ice White Bubblegum flavour - The bubblegum flavour is to die for! I love how it's the bubblegum flavour with the whitening effect of normal Wrigleys. Bubblegum will always make me nostalgic, that's probably why I love it so much.

Purse - Present - It has the most card spaces in the entire world. I can't really say much else except it's very soft leather.

Ignore my college badge please. And my house keys. Can you tell I like the aliens from Toystory?

Carex Moisture Plus Hand Gel - Boots - I work with animals so it's really a must to have a disinfecting hand gel. Moisture Plus stops my hands being like paper.

Nivea Q10 Plus Age Defying Hand Cream - Boots - No, I haven't lost the plot and started think my hands were looking old at 19. I stole this off my mam after she left. It's so nice and smooth, it smells divine too.

Vaseline Rosy Lips -Boots - I love this so much. Not only does it make your lips nice and smooth but it also gives them a rosy glow. No need for lipstick. Perfect for daytimes or a first date.

Vaseline Cocoa Butter - Boots - I really like Vaseline. It's such a fail safe. The smell of the Cocoa butter one is delightful and, as with all Vaselines, it makes your lips so kissably soft.

Soap & Glory Super Colour Fabulipstick Powdercoat Matte Lipstick - in Blush Pink - Boots - I was not expecting this to be as dark as it was but it glides on beautifully. I always wear it when I've got minimal eye makeup on. Statement lip or statement eye of course It's not exactly a cheap lipstick but you don't have to sell your soul for it either. It's good quality like all Soap and Glory products and it doesn't dry my lips out (not sure about everyone elses) like some other matte lipsticks can.

Barry M Lip Paint - in Baby Pink - There are so many colours in the Barry M lip paint range which is why I always look there first. They are a bit drying but I also make sure I've moisturised my lips so they're nice and smooth before putting it on. There is pretty much for everyone even quirky colours like green and blue. Perfect for Halloween and very affordable.

Rimmel London Kate Matte Lipstick - in 101 - This is my fail safe. I love the colour. It tastes a bit chalky but it looks so lovely when it's on and it doesn't dry your lips out completely
Makeup bag - I actually received this so many years ago now in a gift set from Boots. You may know it, the one with the 'chocolate milk body wash'. I've used it ever since because it's the perfect size for all my essentials so I don't need to carry a massive washbag with me all the time.

iPod Classic  - The music people's iPod. I really wanted my iPod for nothing more than listening to as much music as possible. No internet, no games, no apps. Just music. This is exactly why I bought this. I actually got my old one replaced not that long ago after the part where you plug your headphones into broke :( They are pricey but they last for ages if you're careful so I always think that
they're a great investment. An iPod classic is perfect if you're just into listening to music too.

Snow White Must Die by Nele Neuhaus - This book was completely addictive. It was just so engaging and it kept you guessing for the whole story. I really like crime/mystery books because I try and work out who it was before the book finishes which is why I am a massive Stephen King fan.
I love books, sorry for rambling.

I'm seriously go in store if you want to buy any of the lipsticks I show because they look completely different on different people.

That seemed to go on forever. Sorry for how rambly and boring that was but there is nothing interesting in my bag.

Also, I don't just go around eating lipstick before people think I do. I bite my lips sometimes and I realised my lipstick was a bit chalky.

Here is my cat btw. If you have me on Twitter then you may know that I decided to include them more in my posts. This is cat number 2 of 3.

I'm off to beddy byes.

Toodles!
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P.S. You're having my cat's picture. Instead of smiley, you get sleepy.

Winter is a coming.

Hello my honeybears!

Yes, I have resurfaced. Finally. Did you like my Game of Thrones reference?

Anyway, as you may have noticed if you have dared to venture outside, it is getting fairly nippy. When I say fairly nippy, I mean I have been frozen solid and telling everyone how horrifically cold I am along with constant shivering and teeth chattering.

Due to this, rather sudden, weather change, I've decided that I would show you my woolies. Hats, gloves and all the other wooly goodies I own.

This is currently my only cardigan...for now. It's so nice and cosy and snuggly. I love it so much even the colours. My hat is also brilliant, admit it? It's cute as a button and being a bear is all the rage these  days, don't y'all know?
Cardigan - Primark - £16
Bear Hat - River Island - Christmas Present

 This is actually a lads jumper from Matalan years ago. It's so big even though it's a small. Men are really big, aren't they? It feels like you're getting a big, warm cuddle all day when you wear it. The one downside: due to my long hair, when I pull it over my head I end up getting my hair stuck and pulling it out. Ouchie :(

 I can honestly give you no details on my lovely owl jumper as it was a Christmas present off my boyfriend last year. I can tell you that the neck was so scratchy, to the point where my neck was red raw, that I had to 'trim' the harder parts off and wash it with A LOT of fabric softener. It did shrink a touch :( ANYWAY, I got the hair band (yes, it is a hair band) as a gift too but it was £12 from a Christmas fair in Durham City Centre. So looking forward to it this year. If you're from the North East, come along, there is everything. I always feel a bit like a cougar in leopard print. I feel I should be inviting young men into my house because I need my pool cleaning. This would, however, help if I had a pool and wasn't 19.

 Same jumper, I love it. This hat, known in my household as the Bat/Cat hat, was the first animal related item that I bought as an 'adult'. It is from River Island about 5 years ago at around about £8ish pounds. Don't quote me on that. I feel like a child when I wear it but it makes me happy. Wear what makes you smile.

 Just chillin', being a raccoon. Yet another River Island purchase. This was during my love affair with River Island which ended abruptly last year after an incident with a pair of shoddy studded leggings. Anyway, off topic. I always wear this in winter because when it snows, I feel like lying down and burrowing. Do raccoons burrow? Am I confusing them slightly with badgers? It's also not that thick so I can wear it under my coat but it's thick enough so I can warm without an extra layer.

 This is without the hood and looking vaguely normal.

 AHHH! MITTENS! I love mittens! They're foxy/raccoony too. Guess where they're from? That's right. RIVER ISLAND! Animal stuff makes me more happy than I care to admit and they do/did a brilliant selection of animal related clothing during the winter. These are actually really toasty but the thumb is slightly too big from my hands and when the tops are down, it is, naturally, difficult to do anything.

 One of my cats decided to help me by trying stealing my camera and 'redesigning' my leggings with her claws. She's all heart, see.

I really love winter. Do you? Let me know your favourite season :)
That's me done for today.
I will be back soon to ramble aimlessly about life.

Toodles!
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Fashion (and beauty) Faux Pas

Hello my honeybears!

Sorry for dropping off the face of the Earth for a while, I've been extremely busy and stressed to bits! I'm also full of a very bad cold or the beginning of flu so this post won't have pictures of me. Be pleased.

Instead I will tell you all about my top fashion faux pas that make me cringe like mad.

You ready? Here goes!

In at number 10 is....

Bras on show! By this I mean when people are wearing round neck tops and the edges of their bra or, in some cases that I've seen, half the cup being on show. Personally, I think it looks trashy, it's like stereotypical chav in my book. I don't see how it's sexy in the slightest, nor do I see how it's comfortable having that much breast exposed.

This topic takes me nicely onto my number 9

Wearing bras that are too small! I am a culprit of this *slaps hand* but it is normally because I'm too skint to afford nice, new bras so I make so (When you get over a DD, you can't find nice bras for a reasonable price). It looks horrible when you can see boobs spilling over the tops of the bra and pressing against a top or dress or when someone bends over and you can see their boobs are out of the bra. It's not nice at all.

At number 8, it is....

Band t shirts! Obviously, not all band t shirts but people wearing band t shirts when they don't know who the band is but they think the top is cool. I actually had a lovely experience in Topshop when they had just brought out their Fleetwood Mac tops. A girl behind me said to her friend 'Oooh, this tops's cools. I might get it. What is Fleetwood Mac? Who cares.' I'm sorry but I believe that you should have to be able to name at least 3 songs before you are allowed to purchase a band top. Hipsters, stop this madness.

Number 7...

Double denim! I know it's in fashion at the moment but I am not a fan. I only like it when it's say, black jeans and a light blue jacket. The same colour denim worn together makes me hate life a little. Dungarees are an exception of course but denim jacket/shirts/jeans/skirts (any of the combinations) worn together just don't sit right with me.

In at number 6

Not a fashion faux pas per say but Obvious roots! By this I mean when someone who's naturally light brown/blonde/redhead who dyes their hair black or someone with dark hair who dyes their hair blonde. The inevitable happens, your hair grows and then BOOM! The most obvious, minging roots ever. I just hate it, I honestly do. It's nothing against people who dye their hair those colours, it's just a case of trying to keep on top of your colouring so you don't end up with horrific roots.

Number 5

Top knots!  Whoever invented this hairstyle. You suck. It looks like their in a pineapple on your head! You look ridiculous. I know it might be a quick, out of the way hairstyle but seriously?! It's just stupid and I have tried it, when you have long hair, it actually hurts your neck because it is rather heavy. No one puts it better than the genius of Jenna Marbles!

Number 4!

Bodywarmers! Gilets. Whatever you call them. I don't understand them. It's my extremities that get cold first so who went 'Hey, you know what's a good idea? Cutting the arms off a padded jacket!' I get that it's safer to keep your core warm but I would like warm arms too please. They also make me think of the Michelin Man which puts me so far off them that I'd rather wear Michelin tyres instead of them.

The top 3!

So close but so far. Number 3

Onesies! I'm mainly talking about people that go outside in their onesies. I see them as safe, cosy and simply to be worn indoors whilst drinking hot drinks and watching crappy films. They are not for going outside, shopping. It looks like you've just forgotten to get dressed and I always worry that they haven't bothered to wash before. Stop this madness! I own a onesies, it is a Totoro onesie. If I went out in that, I would be sectioned because people would think I had escaped from the psychiatric wing of a hospital.
This is the same as my onesie. Now you see why people would think this of me.

Totoro onesie

Close but no cigar, number 2

Red lipstick! Yes, red lipstick maybe sexy and sultry in the right hands but in the wrong hands, it's a disaster! There are many who believe that anyone can wear the rouge lipstick and resemble the sex symbol Marilyn Monroe but end up looking like the Joker. It is not for all. It pains me to see people wearing red lipstick when they can't pull it off. Ask a professional if you are unsure. Save yourself the embarrassment.

And the top offender, beating off the competition for the number 1 spot is....drum roll please....

SEE THROUGH LEGGINGS! Oh yes, boys and girls, we've all seen them. The infamous see through leggings favoured by teenage girls and chavs. My stomach turns at the thought of them. No one wants to see your granny pants, thongs or what you had for breakfast. Put yourself away and buy some new leggings or at the least, a long top. I love and loathe leggings in equal measures. Opaque leggings will have a place in my heart whereas see through leggings have their own special place in hell.
REBEL AGAINST THE INJUSTICE!

Do you have any fashion/beauty hates? Tell me about them in my comment box :)

Sorry if I have offended anyone but I am only speaking my mind.

Thanks for reading my loves.

Toodles!
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Face review

Hello my honeybears!

As I said in my last post, I would review my Benefit products when they had all arrived.

Literally a couple of days later, they arrived but I hadn't really had time to go over my products or my little foundation routine. I finally do so I'll get started :)

Benefit Boi-ing Industrial Strength Concealer in Light - £17.50
Benefit Hello Flawless Oxygen wow! Foundation in Ivory I'm Pure 4 Sure - £25.50
Benefit Hello Flawless! Powder in Ivory Gee I'm Swell - £25.50
Benefit High Beam - £19.50
Bourjois Powder Délice de Poudre Bronzing Powder - £6.99 (From Boots)
Maybelline Dream Soft Blush in Berry - £6.49 (From Boots)
I also use Rimmel Wake Me Up Concealer in Ivory - £5.49 however, I missed it off when I took the picture, sorry :(

So, this is my face after cleanser, toner and moisturiser. I am so oily hence why I'm so shiny. I have a lot of spots atm as well.

This is me with the Benefit Hello Flawless Oxygen wow! foundation on. The foundation looks a touch too yellow for my skin but it is the best colour for my skin. The foundation is wonderful, it's so light and your skin can actually breath (I normally wear full coverage and my skin feels trapped). It is a light to medium coverage foundation and is completely oil free (yey!) so it's good for those, like myself, who suffer from oily skin. I applied it with a foundation brush which I will show you later on so it is easy to blend into the hairline and around the jaw line.It gives you a dewy finish so if you like that then I guess leave it like that but I'm more of a matte person. The foundation is also (apparently) really good for your skin as it helps the imperfections on your skin such as spots (according to the Benefit woman I bought it off).

This is with the Benefit Boi-ing industrial strength concealer and Benefit Hello Flawless! Powder and Rimmel Wake Me Up Concealer. I immediately noticed a big difference (in person) when I applied the Benefit concealer, the only trace of my spots were little bumps but no redness, no horrible crusty tops (most of us have been there. When you accidently knock the top off a spot and it oozes and you just hate life) The concealer glides on with a concealer brush and it's so strong that you need so little so it does balance out the price. The powder, however, when I put it on my face to start with, looked so orange that I was terrified to carry on but it evened out and looked pretty good in the end. It leaves your skin nice and matte without looking caked on. The powder comes with a little sponge and a little brush for 'spot on cover' and 'all over cover' so you can get the cover that you really want.
I use the Rimmel concealer under my eyes because it really does cover the dark circles and because I'm such a bad sleeper, I have tonnes. It's really affordable and I feel like I've had mine for a life time. As I'm a student with a one day a week, minimum wage part time job, Rimmel is normally my go to for lipsticks and concealers as it's cheap, widely available and pretty reliable for colours (except foundation for me at least).
Sorry for the bad lighting, the sun went behind a cloud and now I look grey.

Benefit Hello Flawless! Powder brush and sponge

 I always (attempt) to contour after my powdering. I use my Bourjois Powder Délice de Poudre Bronzing Powder to contour by putting it, lightly, in the hollows of my cheeks to help emphasise my cheek bones and I also contour the sides of my nose to make it look smaller. the bronzer is actually my favourite bronzer that I've ever found because it's not orange (HALLELUJAH!) but it gives you a nice brown, bronzed look that you can build up so be careful how much you put on at one time, you don't want to look too dark. I use the lighter shade but I can't remember what it's called *slaps hand* I have used it for several years now and the slight chocolatey smell is so yummy. The packaging is easy to slip into your handbag for top ups on a night out because it's so thin. It is a must have from me and it's so cheap!. I then highlight the tops of my cheek bones, bridge of my nose and my cupids bow with Benefit High Beam. The brush to apply is like a nail polish brush so you have to gently remove all the excess from it before applying because you need only a drop of your nose and cupids bow and about 1/2 on the tops of your cheek bones. I don't smooth it along with my fingers because I feel like it will just pull the powder off your face and, if you've ever rubbed your face when you've got make up on then you'll know, it kind of bobbles around the patch you've rubbed and it looks kinda cakey. Instead, I pat it along and down the areas where I want it. It gives a beautiful, glowing finish and it draws the eye to those areas so all the boys will be staring at your lips. It may cost a bit but because you use so little, it is really worth the money. After highlighting, I put my Maybelline Dream Soft Blush on to the apples of my cheeks, with the patting technique again to avoid dragging the rest of the make up off, and then I pat it back towards my ears. You don't need much because the colour is rather intense when you put it on. It has so far lasted a year and it's only half way through so if you want a blush doesn't budge then this is probably the best product ever! It's so light and doesn't need to be topped up at all.

 This is my finished look with my eye makeup down and my eyebrows all nicely done. For my eyebrows I use Gosh Eyebrow kit. It comes with 3 different colours and wax to keep your eyebrows in place. I love the 3 different colours because I dye my hair between light blonde, as it is now, and a dark blonde so I can use the light blonde and the light brown depending on my hair colour or how defined I want my eyebrows to be. I love the wax as well because it stops stray hairs from falling out of place and looking stupid. It's £8.49 from Superdrug which, in my opinion, is quite cheap compared to others that do similar kits and for what you get.
I recently bought a new eye shadow palette because I love experimenting with my eye make up so when I saw this eye shadow palette with so many different colours, I was over the moon! I used the white as a base and in the corners of my eyes to make them look bigger (I think big eyes are sexy) and then I used the small blending brush to apply the colour, which is a goldy, greeny colour, to the outer quarter of my eyelid and then used the smaller angled brush to smudge the colour along my crease line. The eye shadows are buildable so you can make them as light or as solid as you like and the variety of colours that are included in the palettes mean that there's something for everyone. I finished off my eyes with Maybelline Colossal Volume Mascara. I like my eyelashes to have volume because they're naturally quite long and curly so this mascara is a current go to but I can't get it in waterproof (waah!) which would make it my all time favourite so I have to also apply Rimmel Scandal'eye Waterproof formula which is a bit naughty but hey, if you're not going to make it waterproof, my money or their mascara wand will be going elsewhere.

 Fräulein3°8 180 Colors Eyeshadow Palette+12 Pcs Brushes Leopard Case Make up Kit - £17.50 (without P&P) - From eBay

 Look at the variety!

The eye shadow palette comes with this lovely set of brushes.
I can now see myself posing like one of those girls that stands next to car or poses next to products on the teleshopping shows.

Wow, that seems like such a loooong post. If you've actually taken the time to read this, good for you!
I'm off to watch CSI Sunday (woohoo).

Toodles!
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Tearing s**t up

Hello my honeybears!

Probably a pretty bizarre title for this post really but I love tearing/cutting my clothes up. I have destroying my tshirts down to a fine art.

I hate tshirts that have really high necklines so they're proper choking around your throat. They make me really claustrophobic so I started 'customizing' my tops. I use that word lightly because I don't add anything on, I just rip stuff off.

I bought a Batman and Robin top from Triple S when I was like 14? Yea, round about then (that was 5 years ago btw) and the neckline was so high, I honestly thought I was choking and the sleeves were really tight so I looked like an over stuffed sausage.

The top and I were then alone in a room together and one thing led to another and....I cut the sleeves and neckline off. Oopsies!

It looked better tbh and I no longer felt as self conscious because I didn't think I was going to die.

I did all this like, 5 years ago and the top hasn't unravelled as of yet.

My thunder thighs and I were just being fabulous...darling

Batman and Robin tshirt - Triple S (many moons ago)
Jeans - Matalan - £12
Belt - Primark - £2 - I think
Peace Sign Earrings - Newlook - £2.99

Earrings - As Above

Closer look at my top
My hair looks slightly ginge here but I'm trying out Benefit's Hello Flawless Oxygen Wow in I'm Pure 4 Sure so my skin looks better (kinda) than normal. Full review when my other Benefit products arrive (SO EXCITED!).

Being Dumbo so you can all laugh at me.

I don't just massacre tshirts either. Old jeans and dresses are also victim to the scissors of doom. Nothing is safe!

Anyway, I'm currently in Huddersfield as I'm having 2 days off from my vet placement and I'm shattered so I'm off to chill and watch Doctor Who in bed.

Toodles!
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 Ah My God! Look how happy he is!

Top Vlogs

Hello my honeybears!

We all know that Youtube is full, and I mean full, of vloggers doing make up, hair, clothes (etc) reviews and tutorials. As I have no life, I spend a lot of time on Youtube searching for my favourite vloggers and watching videos of animals.

Possibly one of my favourite videos :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=18-xvIjH8T4

Anyway, so off track with my video of a slow loris. I have learnt from videos on line, how to do stuff like contour and put my hair in a bun ring (which was NOT on the packaging when I got one). I still suck at contouring but I'm getting better.

This is my top 5 vloggers. They're not in any particular order because I couldn't really decide who I liked more than who as they're all pretty awesome in their own way.

1) Laurenbeautyy
laurenbeautyy is a channel by the lovely Lauren Curtis. She really is lovely, she follows me on Twitter (whoop whoop). She's from Australia so some of the products she uses and reviews aren't available in the UK which sucks. Her tutorials are wonderful, there is something for pretty much everyone. I tried out one of her tutorials for my birthday meal and it looked brilliant. She's a beautiful girl and she's a great teacher. If you like smokey eyes or just want to perfect your blending (I've seen a few videos by her with smokey eyes) then she's your girl. http://www.youtube.com/user/laurenbeautyy

2) Saturdaynightsalrite
Karissa Pukas is awesome! Like, I can't even describe how much I love her twitter feed and her look books. She also likes Black Milk clothes so she's obviously a good egg. Her videos are pretty diverse as they range from TMI Tuesdays (which pretty much talks about things in life) to make up and hair tutorials. She has a video for everyone if I'm honest. She's well worth a look. http://www.youtube.com/user/saturdaynightsalrite

3) Shaaanxovlogs
I originally started subscribing to Shannon when she was planning a boob job abroad. I have issues with my body and I wanted to see what her experience was like so I subscribed. I don't regret it at all. Her clothes hauls and 'Getting Ready' videos are brilliant and gave me a lot of ideas for how to do my make up and hair when I go out and even items of clothing I can pair together (I normally think I'll just blend into the background in all black but now I find it can actually make a sexy ass outfit). http://www.youtube.com/user/shaaanxo/featured

4) The Beauty Bybel
The Beauty Bybel is by the gorgeous Carli Bybel. She actually has 2 channels 'The Beauty Bybel' and 'The Inner Beauty Bybel'. I am in love with her hair tutorial videos as she shows you how to get that uber sexy wavy hair that makes you look like you've just stepped off the catwalk. She also does lovely tutorials on eye make up, everything from dramatic to classy. On her Inner Beauty Bybel, Carli has a link to her boyfriend's channel which is really good if you're trying to lose weight (which I am) there's some great workouts that you can do in the comfort of your own home. http://www.youtube.com/user/CarliBel55/featured
http://www.youtube.com/user/InnerBeautyBybel

5) Grav3yardgirl
Grav3yardgirl or Bunny Meyer is a recent find of mine and I already completely love her. She's mad as a hatter with awesome style. If you want a giggle as you learn then she is honestly your perfect choice. She has pretty much the same style as me which I LOVE! She also does videos called 'Does this really work?' where she tests different items that claim to be able to do certain things that probably seem a little bit far fetched. Anyway, she is hilarious, I was peeing myself after watching the first 2 minutes of one of her videos. She is 100% worth your time.
http://www.youtube.com/user/grav3yardgirl

I follow all these lovely girls on Twitter and some on Facebook too so go and check them out. If you like them as much as I like them and decide to subscribe to their channel then give me a quick mention to tell where you heard about them ;) I'm a cheeky nout, eh?

I'm off to bed now anyway, work tomorrow and all that jazz plus I have a sore throat so I'm losing my voice and I feel a bit under the weather really.

Toodles!
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Cyber Bullying and Me

Yello my honeybears!

Today, I'm not talking about make up or skin care or fashion or anything that I normally talk about. I'm going to talk about Cyber Bullying.

As a lot of you may (or may not) have seen on the News or on social networking sites, there is currently a story circulating about a 14 year old girl by the name of Hannah Smith.

Hannah Smith, like many young people, had an ask.fm account. Heartbreakingly, due to this site having the anonymous setting, this young girl was bullied so badly that she took her own life.

This is a subject very close to my own heart, not because I knew the girl but because, like 1 in 5 children (according to the NSPCC), I was also bullied via social networking sites. When I was younger, it was Formspring that offered this anonymous link to someone else.

I honestly don't know how some people can sit back and go 'you know what I'll do today, I'll make this person hate their life' And I did, I hated my life. I would dread going onto my Formspring account in case I had a comment waiting for me but I hated not knowing what was there as well. I used to come online to comments saying I was an attention seeker, a slut, obese, ugly, a c**t (hate the word, refuse to even spell it), a waste of space. I used to get told that no one liked me and it was better off if I was dead. There's only so many times you can hear stuff like that before you actually start to believe it.

I was bullied for a large proportion of my childhood and adolescence by, what felt like, everyone but it was mainly people I classed as my 'best friends'. I was bullied about pretty much

I was diagnosed with depression when I was 15 years old when I finally showed my then biology teach the cuts on my hip and wrist, I was then made to have counselling and placed on medication.

I really didn't enjoy talking about what was happening with a stranger and I relied mainly on the medication. I felt like a failure for having to take medication to make me balanced so I stopped taking it.

At 16 years old, I tried to kill myself by overdosing on my tablets. Fortunately, I regretted it and was taken to hospital.

People don't realise when their words do to others. 'Sticks and stones may break my bones but your words made me want to die.'
Everyone needs to take responsibility for what they say and what they do. Just because you're sat behind a keyboard saying these things doesn't make it any less real. You don't see what it's doing to the other person and then it's too late and they're gone. Take responsibility.

I was lucky. I got help and when I relapsed, I have a support system of my family, my best friends and my boyfriend who were always there for me when I was depressed. But other people aren't so lucky, they don't speak out about it and they don't get the help they need.

Look out for the signs. If a friend has become withdrawn from their normal activities, tearful for no reason, if they're losing or gaining weight. There are so many symptoms. I personally became withdrawn from my friends, I had suicidal thoughts, aches and pains and I found it difficult to get out of bed on a morning. I'll give you the link to the NHS website that lists more symptoms at the bottom in case you're worried about someone you care for.

My bullying experience has shattered my self confidence in my looks and everything about myself. I hope to get through all this.

Help stop bullying before it claims the life of someone else.

http://www.nhs.uk/Conditions/Depression/Pages/Symptoms.aspx

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P.S. I cried whilst reading articles about Hannah Smith and writing this. I thought the piglets were a much needed dose of cuteness to lift spirits slightly.